The secret gambler

At the station, she said, when she read on a billboard that the three steps of a gambling hangover were, first: a sick feeling, second: anxiety and regrets, and third: not liking yourself, she began to wonder whether she might have been gambling in secret, and in such a clever and deceitful way that she had erased all memory of what she’d been doing, and so now would never be able to be sure whether this was the cause of her symptoms or not.